A week ago Lawton celebrated his first Father's day... my friends and I arranged a "surprise walk/run" in Culver City. It was really fun, Nolan was intrigued by so many people on the streets... Lawton has been such a great "Papa". I admire his patient and perseverance to do the best for Nolan and I and his love for us.
Saturday, June 27, 2009
Sunday, May 3, 2009
Life passes so fast and we don't realize it... Nolan is almost 9 months and we created a beautiful and intimate bond. We spend the days together and we have special moments like late afternoon when we sit and face our backyard and we start talking to each other... I show him the flowers, plants, animals and all God's creation... he's amazed by everything. One special plant was an orchid given to us when Nolan was born... at first it had just one flower, then little by little one another flower would show up. The coincidence is that every month one flower would come up Nolan would celebrated another month old, so right now the 9th flower is about to florish... Isn't this beautiful? When I look at Nolan I just think of how much joy this little boy has brought us.
I've been reading a book about motherhood and the more I read it, the more passionate and certain I am about my calling to care for him. I see how God's designed me to be Nolan's mommy and how Lawton and I will impact his life. Both in a good and bad ways,
I also realized the things that happened to me in my past that are coming so clear now... both good and bad, I see how my family impacted who I am right now.
Lawton and I had been married for 3 years and it seemed that we went through so much. We also developed a special bond with each other... when we traveled to Brazil a few weeks ago, we were apart for 1 week and I felt our family was incomplete... Even though Nolan and I were having a good quality time with Ama and Acon, we missed Lawton a lot. I could tell that Nolan missed his daddy when one night he woke up crying in the middle of the night and I tried everything I could to soothe him but nothing worked... I just thought that if Lawton was there, he would be able to calm him down. He's been such a good husband and father, I'm so proud of him. Lawton just wants to do his best for both Nolan and I.
I've been reading a book about motherhood and the more I read it, the more passionate and certain I am about my calling to care for him. I see how God's designed me to be Nolan's mommy and how Lawton and I will impact his life. Both in a good and bad ways,
I also realized the things that happened to me in my past that are coming so clear now... both good and bad, I see how my family impacted who I am right now.
Lawton and I had been married for 3 years and it seemed that we went through so much. We also developed a special bond with each other... when we traveled to Brazil a few weeks ago, we were apart for 1 week and I felt our family was incomplete... Even though Nolan and I were having a good quality time with Ama and Acon, we missed Lawton a lot. I could tell that Nolan missed his daddy when one night he woke up crying in the middle of the night and I tried everything I could to soothe him but nothing worked... I just thought that if Lawton was there, he would be able to calm him down. He's been such a good husband and father, I'm so proud of him. Lawton just wants to do his best for both Nolan and I.
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Almost 6 Months old
I can't believe Nono will be 6 months old in a few weeks... time really flies, and he's growing fast... we went to so many milestones, he's laughing at anything we do to him, he's been rolling over a while ago, he's even interacting with Mila, the other day, they were playing with each other... Mila was jumping while Nolan was laughing at her... it was so cute and funny. He wants to stand up now more, wants to jump and complains when you take too long to put his clothes on. He arches his back and say "ur" when he wants to get out of the car seat when the car stops.
Recently I started sleep training him, that's been one of the saddest thing to see your baby crying so much. But it's for his good, he needed to learn so that he would nap better. Many times I'd hold him close and say that we would learn together, that I'm by his side... just like I talked to him at the hospital when I was trying to breastfeed him.
He continues to be the cuttest baby in the world, as one of our friends always repeats every time she sees him... he has the biggest smile and we can see his gums when he does that.
Recently I started sleep training him, that's been one of the saddest thing to see your baby crying so much. But it's for his good, he needed to learn so that he would nap better. Many times I'd hold him close and say that we would learn together, that I'm by his side... just like I talked to him at the hospital when I was trying to breastfeed him.
He continues to be the cuttest baby in the world, as one of our friends always repeats every time she sees him... he has the biggest smile and we can see his gums when he does that.
Monday, October 27, 2008
Coming back to my first love
Epicentre started a season of fasting and prayer where the main focus was to come back to our first love. I was a bit unsure whether or not to participate but then yesterday I decided to try. It will be a month to give up something in order to make space for God and see how he speaks to me. These are todays' verses for reflection
"I have loved you with an everlasting love, I have drawn you with loving kindness" Jeremiah 31:2
"O God, you're my God, earnestly I seek you; my soul thirsts for you, my body longs for you, in a dry weary land where there's no water" Psalm 63:1
Even though today was such a difficult and tiring day, I started with worship and I was so filled with God's love already. I was able to freely worship and I immediately started praying. I confess to Him how I am prideful about my faith and my perseverance and others don't, that I criticize myself a lot, and being harsh on myself every time something goes wrong. I wasn't tired anymore, it seems that a heavy weight was lifted from my shoulders.
God spoke to me as to remind me that I am still his little girl. I thought of how much I love Nolan and understand so much more the love of the father for his children. That this love is unconditional and unending, always there no matter what I do, God will still love me. It was such a special experience that I am really excited to what's in store for this month.
"I have loved you with an everlasting love, I have drawn you with loving kindness" Jeremiah 31:2
"O God, you're my God, earnestly I seek you; my soul thirsts for you, my body longs for you, in a dry weary land where there's no water" Psalm 63:1
Even though today was such a difficult and tiring day, I started with worship and I was so filled with God's love already. I was able to freely worship and I immediately started praying. I confess to Him how I am prideful about my faith and my perseverance and others don't, that I criticize myself a lot, and being harsh on myself every time something goes wrong. I wasn't tired anymore, it seems that a heavy weight was lifted from my shoulders.
God spoke to me as to remind me that I am still his little girl. I thought of how much I love Nolan and understand so much more the love of the father for his children. That this love is unconditional and unending, always there no matter what I do, God will still love me. It was such a special experience that I am really excited to what's in store for this month.
Friday, October 24, 2008
Nolan and Ama'
Nolan just loves Ama' so much. He loves to talk to her and when he sees her, he has his open mouth smile, it is so cute.
The other day i was at the mall with my mom and Nolan and I was observing her interacting with him. She was showing him the carrousel's and he looked at it amazed on this big shinny thing... but what stayed in my head was how they were interacting, he looked so happy and content as well as my mom.
That moment I saw how happy she really was and how much she loves him. I believe that Nolan made her feel happier and more joyful, she has been such a blessing in my life and now in Nolan's life, I'll make sure he remembers that. And I know he'll miss her a lot when she's gone in 3 weeks.
I also became more aware that being a mom is just being selfless, forgetting about your needs and attending to my baby is my priority. And that one day, 35 years ago, she did the same for me.
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Nolan's lesson for me
I've been noticing now how Nolan needs structure... eat every 3 hours (exactly), poop 2 times a day, sleep at 6 or 7. It made me learn to be ready for him, and i noticed how much effort i need to do so that I can achieve success. And he's teaching me to change.
Saturday, October 11, 2008
2 months and 6 days
Lawton and I talked on how we cannot even imagine life without Nono.
He's such a blessing, a miracle and gift from God. He's been growing big and strong, today he's 2 months and 6 days, very strong willed, whenever he wants something done, he wants it immediately and his own way. He's also a good boy, he smiles and talks a lot (like daddy) especially in the mornings and he started suck his little hand. First, he places the hand in front of his face, then he sucks the knuckles and makes a face like: "ugh, what is that?" The cuttest thing in the world...
He's such a blessing, a miracle and gift from God. He's been growing big and strong, today he's 2 months and 6 days, very strong willed, whenever he wants something done, he wants it immediately and his own way. He's also a good boy, he smiles and talks a lot (like daddy) especially in the mornings and he started suck his little hand. First, he places the hand in front of his face, then he sucks the knuckles and makes a face like: "ugh, what is that?" The cuttest thing in the world...
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