Having a baby certainly changed how I view life and how much in my life I need to deal, especially in my relationships. Lawton and I realized how many things we need to talk about, how much inpatient we are with each other now, how much we've been arguing too.
It's been a challenging time for me, I realized that my life still needs to be worked on, how i need to change and realized how sinful I am. Many times when I am frustrated, I tend to criticize myself a lot, and try to see what I've been doing wrong and what I should have done differently. I'm not sure why I'm so harsh on myself.
Just yesterday I was sad, Nolan was crying in pain and I just got so sad because I felt helpless to help him... Mom took over and calmed him down, and then I felt so inadequate to take care of him.
I also noticed how distant Lawton and I became. We really need to be intentional to keep close to each other, that's what we'll be trying to do. Lawton is really a good man, understanding and loving to me, a good husband and daddy and we love each other very much.
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